This is my 100th post on here. Part of me wanted to write something inspirational. While another part of me wasn’t sure what to say. I have imported a few of my posts from other blogs and rolled them into this one. Some I have written recently while others were written in the past few years. I have read some of the comments that have been made lately (even those in the spam folder that I have tried my hardest to get approved). Some people have said how much I have inspired them (I am so glad to have helped you out!) while others haven’t been so nice. I even recently read one what made me very sad. I felt like how could this person say something like that. They don’t know me. They have no idea about who I am. I made this blog so I could express myself freely and perhaps help other people along the way. Who knows maybe there is someone else who knows what I am going through or close enough.
See I am a young mother who has gone though many changes in the last few years. Things that I have gotten through and tried my best on a daily basis. Did you know that in my early 20s I was told that I might have ADD? I have battled with an eating problem all of my life. Up until a few years ago if I worked my butt off at different jobs trying to make a difference in my life. Trying to find my place in this world. I have been a student, tutor, child care/daycare worker, Customer Service Assistant, Customer Service Representative, and even in the office support field. I have always loved working with children because I didn’t want them to fall in the cracks of this great system of ours. I have dealt (and continue to) with anxiety issues and wanting to please all the people in my life. All I have ever wanted to do was to be given a chance. A chance to show that I was worth it.
Sure I tend to go on and on about a lot of things. That is generally how I am able to explain myself. How I am feeling and thinking. I take a chance everyday by writing. It is my way of communicating what is going on in my mind. My brain is like a freeway with ideas and thoughts speeding is so many directions that it is amazing. Sometimes I wish I could just way what is on my mind without being afraid. Afraid of what others will think of me. Will they see the same person or will they think I am crazy. I never really know.
I am not the strongest person. I am not the person to go to when you need to blow up something. I am a good listener. I am very loyal and kind. I tend to be very trusting. Some might say too trusting. But I am a person. I have a heart that loves to help people. I am a dreamer who wonders a lot. Wonders about what is going to happen. Will things work out. Than again I can be a worrier too. That is just me though. I have been through so much in my life that makes me the unique person that I am. There is so much I want to say but have to filter a few things here and there. Not that I don’t want to say it… but I want it to come out fluidly.
So this is my 100th entry. Thank you for reading and looking forward to many more!