I kept telling myself this since mid September. There were days that I was frustrated. They call it state of emergency. I call it a calamity.  The question I keep asking is why.

Stateside never trained me for any if this. I drafted an email to explain my discouragement. The best thing I did was make arrangements for my son’s Christmas gift. That I had some control over. Forgotten is something I fear the most. I see so much that emotionally drains me to the core.

I refuse to be a robot and be detached. Many people would be shocked. How do you feel love in this world? No I will not be limited. Been there done that. I must move on. For my sake to become Molly again.