This week was the 4 year milestone of my divorce hearing. I have been through a lot trying to get better.~ Sara
I have shed some internal emotional tears. My weight went down and I freaked. I felt like I was failing and needed someone to cheer me up. I started a breakfast drink that helped a little. I started cutting back on something’s that made me feel better (mainly chocolate) and ate veggies and fruit. Drank Sprite and water as that substitute. Just thinking I got to get back on track. When people said I looked great, my heart fluttered. Great I am pulling on my belt to keep my pants on! How is that great? I looked at my legs and felt a déjà vous. I have come full circle as I saw my long limbs. I wrote my friend frantic for something other than great. Her comforting words came from accross the globe. My body ached for a flavored milkshake or smoothie. A supersize burger and fries meal. Than I realized where I was. Burgers with sliced cut up green peppers with the order of chips/fries. I had to sigh this will do for now.
I finally took a break from mobile blogging. I wrote from my laptop waiting for a day to publish again the normal way. I didn’t want people to ask questions or give me a pity party speech. I just needed to have faith that yes this too shall pass. Having faith that Path will sync to everything else [blogs, Fb, etc.] and my words would reach the masses.
It’s almost March already. I should feel relieved. Nope it has yet to reach me. I am an inspiration, blessing, but not a burden. People love me and miss me. I was liked in the blog world. Now I don’t feel empty. Just my cup overflowing with the love and support of others.