How is it that when anniversaries come by sometimes the mind doesn’t realize it. But when someone acknowledges it the difference it makes in a person is tremendous. Last night as I was working on my training my whole mind went to the Reader Notification on my blog. I had seen the badge for my anniversary the day before but it didn’t hit me. I wanted to do some big post saying how proud of myself for such a milestone. But my mind was hyper-focused on my goal of finishing my training. I had been at my job for a year and doing on the job training but didn’t do my webinars. So I told myself “Molly do you want this badly?” Of course I said yes. So I decided this was what I needed to do. I was putting the oxygen mask on my face and taking in the deep breaths. I knew I needed more training not just on the job but extra so my mind could understand what was going on. So that was that. I decided I would do whatever it took listening to the YouTube videos at night and doing the demos during the weekend.
You know what it was as if the light bulb went on and I had a Oprah “Ah Ha” moment. It was amazing. I remember last year I made it my goal to have more than a thousand followers on Twitter. I wanted to promote my blogs and reach more people. I worked my butt off trying to understand how others did it and do it my own way. Today I have over 2k following me on Twitter.
Life is not easy when you have memory difficulties. You have to find a different way to help you do the most simple things. I use my phone to schedule appointments and set up things. I make sure I get notifications and reminders the day before and day of. I knew without that I would be lost and not able to keep up with everyone else.
Before my mom left she made me promise I would do whatever it took to get better and improve myself. Living with anxiety is a lot of work. I have to turn of the thoughts in my head that or put blockers that tell me that I can’t do something.
Thank you WordPress for giving me the wings to soar. This butterfly is learning to soar with the eagles. 🙂